Far too often we answer that question with the trite, “Fine,” not wanting to discuss what’s really going on in our lives with others. Sometimes it’s just easier to brush it off, and bear the burden ourselves. Yet, by doing that, others aren’t able to help us share the burden, nor can they draw closer to us in sisterhood. We isolate ourselves, thinking it’s easier to walk the path without opening up to others, and yet at times, the strength of a good friend is exactly what we need.
The past month or so has been one of change and growth for me. I’ve been much too busy to even write for this blog, and for that I apologize, but I’ve enjoyed the growth. I’m currently applying to a few full-time jobs at the local university. I’ve really felt led to seek full-time employment to get us out of debt and into a much better financial position once and for all. It’s scary as I don’t know what will come through, but I do hope one of the university jobs works out. Then comes the inevitable, “what are you going to do with Ava?” Luckily, there are very good day care centers in the area, one especially good one on the university campus itself. I feel confident that it will work out for the best, no matter what that decision is.
It’s weird because I feel that to some extent, I’m “failing” in other’s eyes if I put my child in day care. Like it’s a horrid thing to do to a child. Yet sometimes I think Ava will enjoy playmates and a change of scenery even more than staying at home with Mama. Katherine, one of my favorite bloggers, wrote a similar post on homeschooling. I really appreciated her words, as they definitely resonated with me. It’s more important that we do what’s best for our family in consultation with Heavenly Father, rather than what society/our friends/peers expect.